Good Song

I have always struggled with self worth, self esteem issues, a ton of other things that basically add up to feeling worthless or wondering if I matter. Pretty typical of people but stinky none the less. I am sure I am not alone in these types of feeling. I have also struggled with the concept of church. I don't struggle with the concept of Jesus. Just church and sometimes all the bull that goes along with a church. Overall though I tend to just let that go because it is not different than most things in life and their little annoyances. Anyway...today at church I asked if I could start working one time a month in Grant's classroom in hopes of serving but also helping him be more comfortable in there. They were open to my helping but because we go to such a HUGE church I have to fill out this huge packet of information on myself and go through a back round check. I do like this because I don't want some crazy in the 2 year old classroom either. One of the questions I had to answer was about my spiritual journey and I had to tell them about it. For some reason that question made me shudder. In made me shudder due to my own above mentioned insecurities and to me this was very much a "church" question and quite honestly it reminded me of a certain church that also caused shuddering. So basically I answered the question in the simplest way possible because that is how I see it. It is simple to me. He died for me, I serve Him, He lives in my heart, He is my hope. I am not always a nice person, I can be catty and ugly, I can be negative, I can be a bad wife and mom, I can be a rotten friend but it is still okay. Gosh there is peace in that. Then we sang this song at the end of the service...maybe this is my journey.

Here are the words:

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light my strength my song
This cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love what depths of peace
When fears are stilled when strivings cease
My comforter my all in all
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
Till on that cross as Jesus dies
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stand in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
Till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.